
Sunday mornings are a bit of a conundrum for me. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I don't preach every Sunday because I am an associate pastor, so I only preach once a month, however I am committed to participating in every worship service because I need to be visible for the sake of my specialized ministry.
I don't know why I get so anxious sometimes. I've been leading worship for many years through my internships and my former home church. Each Sunday feels like I am new to this worship leadership thing for the first time. In some ways I am because now I am ordained. It feels as if I crossed some invisible line when I had my colleagues lay hands on me and I was told that I am now ordained. In the Catholic tradition it is believed that ordination is a stain that is put upon your soul and this stain can never be washed away...unlike the stain of original sin which is washed away by the waters of baptism.
Being a clergy person feels odd sometimes. Whenever someone calls me Rev. _________, I still look over my shoulder to see if they are speaking to someone behind me, then I realize, oh my title is Rev. I wonder if new doctors ever go through this.
Anyway, I'm need to go off and get ready for Sunday Service and pray to the Holy Spirit that I remember that whatever I do this morning it is all to the glory of God.